Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful celebration!
To me, New Year's is a time to celebrate and reflect on the past year. Everything we did wrong and everything we did right. Our promises and our mistakes. It's a time where the nation comes together to celebrate the hope that a new year brings. For most, it's a clean slate, a fresh start. What I want to know is, why can we only start fresh once a year? If we really want to, we could start over anytime we want.
New Year's isn't a celebration for everyone. People who are depressed, or who late their lives just believe that it's a new year, but nothing has changed. For those people, I say, " Change it!" In order to have change, you need to create it. Things don't just happen, you have to work for it. Looking back on this past year has really opened my eyes. It has been nothing but a roller-coaster of depression, fun, friends, and bad choices. It also was realizing how important family is, realizing I want to change, and trying to become a better person. I started to change at the beginning of November, and since then I really do feel like a completely different person.
Yes, letting go of your past is painful, and sometimes really hard. But if it's weighing you down, if it's keeping you from becoming the person you want to be, if it's or they are making you miserable, it's time to move on. This is currently what I am struggling with. I had so many friends, especially a best friend for more than two years now, that I simply decided to say goodbye to. People grow up and they grow apart. I believe that's just part of life. I'm at a point in my life where I just want to settle down, to grow up, and go to school and get good grades, and find a caring, faithful, and wonderful boyfriend who doesn't have a drinking problem. After having the rough year and a half that I have had, I am ready to grow up and act like a mature adult.
Meanwhile, my ex-best friend and everyone else my age is doing nothing but partying. I really don't see the fun in drinking until I'm vomiting. I really don't see why people would want to do that every single night. Or people who rely on alcohol and drugs to have fun. If you can't fun being sober, than I really don't understand you, and I think you need to realize that you have a problem. I'm not saying that you can't ever go out and have a good time. I went out last night and drank a little bit. I had a great time, and I was not wasted. After not drinking for two months or more, my body has no tolerance for alcohol. I had two mixed drinks with Malibu, and I ended up vomiting this morning. So, no, I would say that alcohol and I don't get along. Everyone has their own lifestyle, and I completely agree that it's your own life and you can do what you want. But if I tell you repeatedly that I don't want to party anymore and you continue to do nothing but party, then yes I am going to walk away.
I think it's funny because my friend still tries to talk to me like nothing is wrong. I have told her how I felt numerous times, but she simply doesn't get it. And I am sick of explaining it to her. I miss how things used to be two years ago. We had a blast, we were inseperable, and we never drank or did drugs. We were simple best friends back then. I knew everything about her. Now, I feel like I don't know who she is anymore. She has changed so much, and to me she just looks like another party girl. I have no idea how it got to this, but we no longer have anything in common. I keep talking about her, because I miss her. Of course I miss her; she was my best friends for 2+ years. Now I don't have a best friend, and it's lonely.
I do believe, though, that I made the right choice to walk away. I wanted out of the party life, and that is what I did. I had to delete all the negative people in my life. People will "talk shit" about anyone they don't like, or who feels like a threat. I don't need people who do that to me. I have a couple good friends, who I am now getting closer to, and I really think they are good. A true friend is someone that you can sit and do absolutely nothing with and still have a blast.
What does New Year's mean to you? You should really think about it. And think about how you can make this new year a better year. Are you a person who makes resolutions, but doesn't stick to them? Do you even make resolutions?
I think making resolutions is a good thing. It's giving yourself reminders of what you want out of life, and that you should start living your life the way you want to. Whether you want to quit your job, or lose a lot of weight, it makes no difference. The only difference is that you need to work towards it. One of my favorite quotes is from Jillian Michaels.
"A goal without a plan is just a dream."
It' so powerful and it reminds me that if you have a goal, you need to have a plan and actually work for it. Otherwise it's just a dream that will never happen. People believe that things are just supposed to happen, that things are just supposed to change on their own. But they don't. Change only comes when you make the effort to be that change! I have not felt so truly happy in years. Yes, I may not have a lot of friends right now, but I'm working on that, and I am so excited for everything I have planned in 2014.
I am going to go make my New Year's Resolutions right now, and I suggest that you do the same!
2014 is a challenge for change!
Much love xx <3
To me, New Year's is a time to celebrate and reflect on the past year. Everything we did wrong and everything we did right. Our promises and our mistakes. It's a time where the nation comes together to celebrate the hope that a new year brings. For most, it's a clean slate, a fresh start. What I want to know is, why can we only start fresh once a year? If we really want to, we could start over anytime we want.
New Year's isn't a celebration for everyone. People who are depressed, or who late their lives just believe that it's a new year, but nothing has changed. For those people, I say, " Change it!" In order to have change, you need to create it. Things don't just happen, you have to work for it. Looking back on this past year has really opened my eyes. It has been nothing but a roller-coaster of depression, fun, friends, and bad choices. It also was realizing how important family is, realizing I want to change, and trying to become a better person. I started to change at the beginning of November, and since then I really do feel like a completely different person.
Yes, letting go of your past is painful, and sometimes really hard. But if it's weighing you down, if it's keeping you from becoming the person you want to be, if it's or they are making you miserable, it's time to move on. This is currently what I am struggling with. I had so many friends, especially a best friend for more than two years now, that I simply decided to say goodbye to. People grow up and they grow apart. I believe that's just part of life. I'm at a point in my life where I just want to settle down, to grow up, and go to school and get good grades, and find a caring, faithful, and wonderful boyfriend who doesn't have a drinking problem. After having the rough year and a half that I have had, I am ready to grow up and act like a mature adult.
Meanwhile, my ex-best friend and everyone else my age is doing nothing but partying. I really don't see the fun in drinking until I'm vomiting. I really don't see why people would want to do that every single night. Or people who rely on alcohol and drugs to have fun. If you can't fun being sober, than I really don't understand you, and I think you need to realize that you have a problem. I'm not saying that you can't ever go out and have a good time. I went out last night and drank a little bit. I had a great time, and I was not wasted. After not drinking for two months or more, my body has no tolerance for alcohol. I had two mixed drinks with Malibu, and I ended up vomiting this morning. So, no, I would say that alcohol and I don't get along. Everyone has their own lifestyle, and I completely agree that it's your own life and you can do what you want. But if I tell you repeatedly that I don't want to party anymore and you continue to do nothing but party, then yes I am going to walk away.
I think it's funny because my friend still tries to talk to me like nothing is wrong. I have told her how I felt numerous times, but she simply doesn't get it. And I am sick of explaining it to her. I miss how things used to be two years ago. We had a blast, we were inseperable, and we never drank or did drugs. We were simple best friends back then. I knew everything about her. Now, I feel like I don't know who she is anymore. She has changed so much, and to me she just looks like another party girl. I have no idea how it got to this, but we no longer have anything in common. I keep talking about her, because I miss her. Of course I miss her; she was my best friends for 2+ years. Now I don't have a best friend, and it's lonely.
I do believe, though, that I made the right choice to walk away. I wanted out of the party life, and that is what I did. I had to delete all the negative people in my life. People will "talk shit" about anyone they don't like, or who feels like a threat. I don't need people who do that to me. I have a couple good friends, who I am now getting closer to, and I really think they are good. A true friend is someone that you can sit and do absolutely nothing with and still have a blast.
What does New Year's mean to you? You should really think about it. And think about how you can make this new year a better year. Are you a person who makes resolutions, but doesn't stick to them? Do you even make resolutions?
I think making resolutions is a good thing. It's giving yourself reminders of what you want out of life, and that you should start living your life the way you want to. Whether you want to quit your job, or lose a lot of weight, it makes no difference. The only difference is that you need to work towards it. One of my favorite quotes is from Jillian Michaels.
"A goal without a plan is just a dream."
It' so powerful and it reminds me that if you have a goal, you need to have a plan and actually work for it. Otherwise it's just a dream that will never happen. People believe that things are just supposed to happen, that things are just supposed to change on their own. But they don't. Change only comes when you make the effort to be that change! I have not felt so truly happy in years. Yes, I may not have a lot of friends right now, but I'm working on that, and I am so excited for everything I have planned in 2014.
I am going to go make my New Year's Resolutions right now, and I suggest that you do the same!
2014 is a challenge for change!
Much love xx <3
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